Frustration

I am really sorry, I just have to get it out, and I feel like a Facebook post would be counter productive, and sound a bit immature.

I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Later-Day Saints. 
and I LOVE IT!

I go to Brigham Young University- set up to help member of my church and others learn in a positive and spiritual environment
and I LOVE IT!

I don't care if you go to BYU, or not, I don't care who your cheer for on game day, I don't care if you were too smart or too lazy for BYU. but I do care when people bash on my school for having high expectation and trying their best to provide a quality education.

It doesn't make sense. If you think its bad to have rules, you missed out on a big lesson on life, if you think that being strict is a problem then submit yourself to a life with less discipline. but because I go to a school that has discipline and maybe some pretty specific rules don't make me feel like that somehow makes me or my school mates less of a person.

Finally the thing that irks me the most. When people who also belong to the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints mock me or BYU because it is so stupid that they MAKE us dress modestly and MAKE us take religious classes. I have been made fun of numerous times simply because i committed to always live my Gospel standards while i attend school before i started school and for some reason people think that that is stupid. even when it is the same standards that they are expected to uphold by having a temple recommend anyways! BYU is a great institution, everyone does there best just like at any other school. I will never be ashamed of my school that has taught me so much both in worldly and spiritual education.

Please stop mocking me for committing to standards you should be living too.

I know this behavior doesn't really apply to anyone that ever reads this blog but, it feels good to express it without causing some sort of scene :)

I have no idea what happened

December. Gone
January. Gone
where did the time go!
I really don't know how i let it happen, well finals in December, that makes sense, and january, fighting the fact that i really had to go back to school. but here it is february!

Just a few updates, Mr. Marshall officially decided on a school and in July we will be moving to....

Thats right Kirksville Missouri, just like i thought, It really is a sweet town and we think it will be perfect for us. we are very excited, and i also got my darling little house that i blogged about a while ago, it will be perfect too! now all we have to do is wait till July so we get make our first big move into our first real house! sometimes its all i think about, i have a lot of hopes and dreams for this little adventure, i've always wanted to live in a small town and I just keep thinking that this will be perfect because its only 2 years, and then we can try something new if we don't like it, and it will keep marshall focused because there isn't much to do.. but its darling. 

Next up marshall and i started our last semester at BYU! its crazy how time has flown by! it feels like just yesterday me and Nique were helping each other move into our freshman dorms. 

Now they have torn down most of Heritage Halls for some new fancy ones. Its kind of sad to see things change so much, we don't even live in provo anymore. I feel so grown up and yet still so much like that freshman girl. However it is really wonderful to be going to school now with the best man in the world and to get to spend my nights sitting at the foot of our bed laughing with him instead of 6 girls. but they were great times in the dorms. 

I try to tell myself to slow down and enjoy it, when i walk around campus thats easy but when i remember all of the assignments and tests and reading.. i didn't do i am just ready to be in kirksville. its a hard balance to find. it really is. 

speaking of balance i just have one thing to say. yesterday, i spent a good hour studying and eating my kids meal at the old creamery on ninth. as i sat there 3 middle aged  men sat in the booth next to me  and i listened to them talk for literally 45 minutes while i pretended to study about women in their ward and their wives in such a negative way because they claimed their wives cared too much about blogging or their own jobs and crafts and cooking to do their cleaning or take care of their kids. and it made me sick.

I feel grateful to have a husband that would never say a single mean or negative thing about me or my family life. I feel grateful that he appreciates all the things that i do. i just wanted to turn around and scold them. Their wives have feelings and hopes just like they do. and yes, some women may take some things to an extreme, i think most women genuinely value their family and relationship more than any other aspect in their lives. 

There just needs to be balance. 

And if i can ever give any advice, never speak ill of your family, ever, to anyone. You will be all the happier and wiser for it.